Heyo! me again, with another original song ! this one is called 'calmandcomposed'. use those inner mean girl skills to tell me what i did wrong in this one. i smile around but look to the ground and i feel your eyes on me
i’m feeling whispers of people in my head already
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they say that i’m too young to feel the feelings that i have
tell that to my wrists which i wear scar clad
tell that to my therapist who everyday
watches as i slowly fade away
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and i’m in pain. but i keep calm and composed
in my head, every day rain but i’ll keep calm and composed
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my happiness. just a face i plaster on.
my sadness. stays a face i only don
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when i’m at home. and i’m not calm and composed.
when i can be alone. i don’t stay calm and composed
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maybe they would take back all the “she’s so happy” mutters
maybe if they didn’t see me with my head in the gutters
maybe if they saw that when i’m home and alone
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i’m in pain. i’m not as calm and composed.
if they heard my heads rain. and it’s not calm or composed
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well then maybe they’d know
that i’m no happy foe
but i just stay
calm and composed