Okay so my question is why am I like this? You see my and my siblings sleep in different rooms, I sleep by mself and my other 3 siblings sleep in the same room. When it's bedtime I hear my older brother who is an adult talk to my other 3 siblings. Something when I hear them laughing I feel lonely. The thing is though, while I sometimes wish I was with them I hate it when I'm actually with them.

Summary:

Siblings sleep in 1 room together while I sleep in my own.
When siblings sound like they're having fun talking to eachother I feel lonely. I sometimes wish I was with them but almost everytime time I am I'm uncomfortable and hate it.