With my grammar errors it's an essay about my loss.

on one evening night in november. i was enjoying
my evening with my husband and four kids
watching a movie. when i received a phone call.
that changed my life forever.

my brother was in a car accident and had passed
away along with his girlfriend. it has taken me
years to overcome the grief i have felt in my
heart. i had to stop avoiding and isolating myself
from family and friend's
(proverbs 18: 1) “i tried not to give in to the urge to
remain socially isolated, people visited me, and i
welcomed them. i also poured out my feelings to
my husband close friends.” i had so many
questions.
why do bad things happen to good people?
is god to blame for such things? are
calamities random occurrences, or are they
man-made?
could it be karma, that is, the result of
one’s actions in a past life, that causes personal
suffering? if there is an almighty god, why does he
not protect good people from harm? will life ever
be free of evil and suffering? and if there's a true
god then what is his name?
finally i decided that i wanted to study the bible
and get to know one of jehovah's witnesses. with
doing so i have gained bible insight and
i learned many bible's principles i have
finally learned the truth about the condition of the
dead.
“at ecclesiastes 9: 5, the bible shows me that the
dead are not suffering, and that fact gives me an
inner peace. the bible also teaches me that there is
going to be a resurrection and that those who are
dead will be brought back to life. so when i think of
loved ones i have lost in death i just think of them
taking a long peaceful nap or away on a trip.”—acts
24: 15. and when god “will swallow
up death forever.”—isaiah 25: 8.

Im sorry for your loss, This should be correct =)

Explanation:

On one evening night in November. I was enjoying

my evening with my husband and four kids

watching a movie. When I received a phone call.

that changed my life forever.

My brother was in a car accident and had passed

away along with his girlfriend. It has taken me

years to overcome the grief I have felt in my

heart.i had to stop avoiding and isolating myself

from family and friend's

(Proverbs 18:1) “I tried not to give in to the urge to

remain socially isolated, People visited me, and I

welcomed them. I also poured out my feelings to

my husband close friends.” I had so many

questions.

Why do bad things happen to good people?

Is God to blame for such things? Are

calamities random occurrences, or are they

man-made?

Could it be Karma, that is, the result of

one’s actions in a past life, that causes personal

suffering? If there is an almighty God, why does he

not protect good people from harm? Will life ever

be free of evil and suffering? and If there's a true

god then what is his name?

Finally, I decided that I wanted to study the Bible

and get to know one of Jehovah's witnesses. with

doing so I have gained bible Insight and

I learned many bible's principles I have

finally learned the truth about the condition of the

dead.

“At Ecclesiastes 9:5, the Bible shows me that the

dead are not suffering, and that fact gives me inner peace. The Bible also teaches me that there is

going to be a resurrection and that those who are

dead will be brought back to life. So when I think of

loved ones I have lost in death I just think of them

taking a long peaceful nap or away on a trip.”—Acts

24:15. And when God “will swallow

up death forever.”—Isaiah 25:8

the swan might be a metaphor for our soul, which is ancient and timeless. the speaker wants to know where it's going and what it wants, what's the purpose in life. he asks our soul to follow him in knowing that god is us and the answer to the question "who am i" that was written on the wind of god's whim to know himself that blew over his being in the beginning of creation. and to connect to god consciously on the path to knowing him is the joy of loving him, like a bee that will grow and end our sorrows by ending desire. in that connection there is no doubt about god and existing forever.