Lasted a little while... I need help is there a number to dial?
I need just a little something to numb it but I still can’t smile.
Told myself I wouldn’t go back,
Only a little keeping it a stack…
Strength yea that’s something I lack,
Scars and bruises blue and black.
Nobody home leave me alone,
You drive me crazy mind blown.
Only time that I’m ok is when I’m sleeping through the day,
That way I don’t feel and it takes the pain away.
Love it when you talk to me,
The thought of leaving I can’t breathe.
Baby teach me just how not to feel,
Make emotionless be real.
I just want to be numb,
Almost there maybe I’m done…
How am I supposed to fight?
Right now nothing feels right,
Lose my grip I just might.
I don’t wanna sleep at night,
Just want you to hold me tight.
Feel your chest warm under my skin,
With you it’s different, I’ll let you in.
Want your hand all on my face,
I want your arms, want your embrace.
I want to hear sweet lies you say,
Tell me everything’s ok.
I know you try to be strong but I see right through it anyway,
All the pain that you're in cuz I fall deeper everyday…
And I’m sorry that I’m selfish,
When I feel my thoughts are hellish.
But it’s you I need around,
I’m sorry if I lose this fight baby, ion wanna let you down.
But I’m scared,
With a feeling of a pain beyond compare.
Terrified,
Wanna cave, wanna shrivel up and hide.
But I have you babygirl all I need by my side.
You keep me going,
Hold me steady see the pain even if it isn’t showing.
You hold me down you're the glue,
My heart ma it belongs to you.
Because of you I stick around,
And I can’t stand to see you down.
I will never let you fall,
Even if I can’t stand I got your back babe through it all.
I can’t even lie I’m feeling all the drift,
But you all keep me up, hold me when I need a lift.
I promise imma keep it going to I can’t no more,
I’ll drive you crazy for a while yea that’s for sure…