I keep alot to myself because its difficult to find other people who understand but sometimes the worst place I can be is my own head I hide behind fake feelings just to make others happy people will tell me that life goes on but for me thats the saddest part I think im afraid of being happy because whenever i get to happy something bad always happens I lost myself trying to please everyone now im losing everyone else trying to find myself
its like i smile but i wanna cry and i talk but i just wanna stay quiet I pretend like im happy but im just not its like tears come from my heart and not my brain I dont think people will understand whats going on in my head when i dont even understand it myself