PLSSS HELPPP KIND OF EASY IF U LIKE WRITING i need help just putting better words and making the story better pls help

i turn to look at my beautiful lover, i look into her eyes thinking how my live can just end or have to leave her to live with another. im looking in her eyes and just like that BOM! without telling me anything i knew she knew what door had the lady and witch one had the tiger. i start to overthink this nevorsely if i want to live with somone i dont love and make my lover suffer , or die for my lover knowing i showed her how much i loved her that i would die for her