Why is the speaker, s heart heavy now in past and present poem​

Summary of I Remember, I Remember

The poet recalls his childhood memories and compares his childhood joy with his gloomy present. ... The speaker recalls his blissful childhood that is still green in his memories. He recalls his bedroom with its little window where the sun used to appear every morning.

honestly you should not write it the word placement is not right and this does not sound right so i think you should write it this way. the life lessons i refused to learn, taught me the hard way this sounds way better you should try it! hope this is very !

noo because no animal can leave it's mother land and freedom even we can't leave some days in a single room by leaving home it is wrong but needed to protect them