According to the speaker, what is “a boat longing for the sea and yet afraid”?

it the climax in the poem

honestly you should not write it the word placement is not right and this does not sound right so i think you should write it this way. the life lessons i refused to learn, taught me the hard way this sounds way better you should try it! hope this is very !

i am a strong (insert gender here) my father and his brother were to, they were killed not by the cold, not by the bears or wolves that roam our streets at night, but by the   bolsheviks. we must stand up and fight communism or we all end up dead, starved dehydrated, enslaved. the time is now we must fight. lenin is a dangerous man but he can be stopped. so my comrades we shall siege there weapons tonight on ward. (rides away with ak(not invented yet) and sword in hand while on bear into snowstorm)