How does the amount of in one dose of chewing Tabacco compare with that in one cigarette

i can't answer your question in very sad situation.

but if your situation is very bad, then you can find happiness by thinking about your past that has full of happiness.

or you should do meditation for some time to get rid off from that bad situation.

my hamster died and my second hamster i got after that one died as well. i also lost two birds named rainbow and kiwi, (they didn't die, they flew off and escaped). i lost a cat named omi, and a dog named snoopie. the best way i got over it is, paying my respects, and just thinking that they were in a happy place. as well as just remembering but not thinking about it all the time, just do fun activities and try not to think about it too much. hope you feel better. i'm sorry about your loss. : (