Does anyone feel this way? you plan your whole life and future with someone and you disappear for a little while and you see that someone again and they have found someone else when you went away and now they have destroyed the future you made with then in a few seconds and they builded new plans and then you feel like they never even loved you and it was all fake and that you wasted your time falling in love with then and it hurts you inside but you cant show it bc you have to act like it doesn't hurt you and you have to just look like your happy from then but your just getting hurt over and over and you still care for that someone and you want them to be happy and you wish he was happy with you not someone else and every time that someone talks about their love and everything you just break more and more and you just start breaking down crying every time and soon enough you just wish you could be numb and not feel anything anymore
and i know it's a run-on sentence and punctuation is bad