Why do I hate my younger brother so much.. I'm fully aware that I'm a toxic sibling, I wanted to change my ways and be nice but he makes it so hard! Don't say "deep inside you, you love him" because I truly believe I don't, its hard for me to imagine crying for him when he dies.

I honestly sometimes feel sad thinking about my hatred for him, we used to be like best friends when we were younger, what went wrong? I noticed how I started to hate him because he gets more attention, he gets less then he did before now but I still feel angry..