Do you ever just lay in bed staring at your ceiling and just wonder why am I here ? why is it that when I'm upset I just want to end it all ? why is it when they say it gets better it never does ? why do they say they care when they're just going to leave and destroy you ? my answer to these questions, why am I here?, I'm here because for some reason the devil decided to let me live . why is it that when I'm upset I just want to end it all?, when I was about nine years old I lost my older brother to suicide, every time I get upset that's all I can think about I just want to see him again , and why do they say they care when they're just going to leave and destroy you? , my best friend I had for 12 years told me how much she cared about me , and then one day she changed and told me to go ki...ll myself it said that no one would ever want me .

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