I hide my depression with happiness although I am not even close to happy I want to stay happy for the people I love but even then I feel like it is not good enough. I feel like I am letting people down and I also bee cheated and the worst part she cheated me on me for my best friend. There is a voice inside my head telling me I am not good enough and it is drowning out the voice saying that it will be ok. But things have been getting worse and worse I stopped talking to my friends and I feel like I am not good enough I really just want to DIE and let the pain go away. I am crying and don't know what to do the voice in my head is getting louder and louder telling me im not good enough and that im ugly and dumb.