in 8 days ill be turning 14,, ik i should be happy but im not.. im not hapy bc while i get to live another year you had yours gone on my bday. and ik you dont want me to be mad.. but i am. im mad bc if my dad and his brother were to listen and prioritize your health, and brought u to the hospital when you said u didnt feel well and wanted to go to the hospital you would still be here... my siblings told me that im a curse and its bc i was born that u had passed im mad i was only 3 when that day had come...im mad bc 3 yr old me prolly nvr hugged you or told you she loved you, instead she fussed and cried when she wanted her binkie, i wish i wouldve told you good bye, and how much i love you. i miss you precious face more and more everyday. not a second goes by when i dont want you back. i miss hearing you talk in russia and georgian as if i understood a word you were saying. ever since you passed everything has changed. my dad hates me and blames me for your death, he doesnt remember january 19th as the day his daughter was born, but the day his mother had died. i wish i could do something to bring you back, but if you were here, would my parents still be together, would i have met my friends, would i be alive. i think if you were still here, all this pain would have vanished, and perished into air, your words light up the room and i wish i could do something to hear it j one more time. im mad that my father had gaven away the royal ring, the only thing that i wouldve had to remember you by, i dont have memories, as i was 3 when the time had come. i remember when my parents and family had searched your room after you had passed,, they found the present,, the present you were gonna give me,,, wrapped, with a note that said " my lovely grand-daughter, its your 3rd birthday and your growing up so fast, i love you to the moon and back". till the day i meet you again i will live every morning, evening, and night to make you proud. i miss you more than words can describe, i love you forever, even if your not here irl <3 - breanna